I because the Course was teaching one way of understanding healing, and my classes were teaching another. It was hard, but I also felt something unmistakable: I had such a deep connection with the Course that it changed my life completely. I did it twice during those two years, and I became on fire with one primary goal—learning to hear guidance.
That’s the part people don’t always talk about: the Course suggests you learn to recognize a guiding voice even when the book is closed. Around that time, I was also captivated by the Findhorn stories and Eileen Caddy—especially her devotion to listening and being guided step by step. I wanted that kind of direct connection so badly that I made a dramatic choice: I decided guidance would lead my life from that point on, with no Plan B.
I left everything familiar behind and went searching—outer searching, yes, but really it became an inner initiation. I put myself in situations that were far too intense, and fear became my teacher. I didn’t get what I thought I was going to find, and I came back devastated—feeling like I had failed. It was a kind of ego death. But I kept clinging to guidance. I kept writing and listening.
And then guidance gave me a lifesaving instruction: “Write the story. You left pieces of yourself behind. Half of you is still on that mountain—go retrieve her.” So I wrote what happened, and then I listened for what each piece meant. Those were some of the most profound sessions of my life—writing, reflecting, and slowly realizing there was intelligence and love moving through even the parts that felt humiliating and frightening. I was learning to hear, but I still wasn’t fully trusting.
Eventually I had a meditation experience that clarified the entire journey. It brought me right to the moment where I had turned away from what felt impossible, and the message was clear: “Don’t turn around. Go into it.” In that revelation, everything made sense—not as punishment, not as failure, but as liberation. I saw how deeply I had been carrying an old belief that the spiritual path had to involve suffering and sacrifice. Life had amplified that pattern until it finally broke. That was a huge turning point for me. I knew I was done with suffering as a spiritual strategy, and my connection to guidance became steadier and more trustworthy.
Since then, that inner voice has been my therapist—helping me work through trauma, reshape my beliefs, and return again and again to peace. The Course also gave me a profound connection with Christ energy, but not in a religious way—more as a living experience of love, truth, and remembrance.
Years later, another turning point arrived. About eight years ago, I realized I couldn’t keep practicing “regular therapy” in the usual way. Traditional therapy can be wonderful, but it often focuses on emotions. What I learned through the Course is that the thoughts beneath the emotions are essential—because thought is what creates perception and feeling. If you don’t change the thought patterns, you can soothe symptoms, but you don’t necessarily reach the root.
Then the guidance said something simple: “Why don’t you teach exactly how we taught you?” I listened. I began teaching people how to recognize the thoughts and beliefs driving their suffering, and how to choose again. I started seeing profound changes. One of the clearest truths for me is this: there’s really only one problem and one solution—the problem is not being connected. So my work became a study in re-connection, in a way that people from many backgrounds can receive. With teenagers especially, I avoid loaded language. I talk about different dimensions: the suffering dimension and a freer, happier dimension. Thought is the bridge between the two—along with heart.
Cancer also changed my life—truly, for the better. I had cancer myself, and even after decades with A Course in Miracles, that experience demanded embodiment. It brought me to a moment of fierce clarity: “Wait—who’s in charge here?” And I realized, in a deeper way than ever before, that I am in charge of what I choose, what I cultivate, and how I relate to my body and my future. I made a list—reasons I wanted to live and reasons a part of me didn’t. That list became one of the most important tools I’ve ever used, because it showed me exactly what needed attention and healing, and it set me in new direction.s
That’s how I now hold illness, trauma, and major life upheavals: as wake-up calls—not punishments, but messages. When we stop asking “What did I do wrong?” and start asking “What is this trying to teach me?” everything begins to make sense. And once we receive the message, the suffering doesn’t need to keep shouting.
At the heart of everything I do is this: I help change people’s minds. I help people learn to watch their thoughts, choose what they allow into their inner world, and return to connection—because connection is the real healing. And I love watching what happens when someone remembers who they are.
